I don’t understand how anyone could ever treat someone they once said they “loved” the way he’s treating me right now.
It’s unfair, it’s rude and it hurts so fucking bad. You can’t tell someone you still love her as you’re breaking up and then never attempt to speak to her again.
But I guess, whether I like to admit it or not, it’s making me move on a little bit more. Or maybe it’s not and instead it’s turning me into a complete psycho because I refuse to give up hope that we’ll ever talk/see each other again. Because I haven’t let go of any of the feelings we once shared for each other, they’re still just as intense as the first time I felt them. They say you never forget your first love, and this one’s totally taunting me. Sometimes ignoring someone you “want to be friends with” and “might have a chance with again sometime in the future” might not produce the result you want, but instead the exact opposite.
Instead of pushing someone out of your life FOR NO APPARENT REASON WITH NO EXPLANATION AT ALL, you’re just making her cling on even harder. And you’re confusing the shit out of her. You’re hurting her. And of course you know it, how could you not?
I know I’m being a psycho and I know I should move on and I know I’m hurting myself over and over again. But it doesn’t matter, because I am not doing anything about it. And I don’t even know how to pry away.
Obviously, writing about it is the only way I can even start to deal with this mess that’s going on. Be glad you’re not me, I guess.
It’s unfair, it’s rude and it hurts so fucking bad. You can’t tell someone you still love her as you’re breaking up and then never attempt to speak to her again.
But I guess, whether I like to admit it or not, it’s making me move on a little bit more. Or maybe it’s not and instead it’s turning me into a complete psycho because I refuse to give up hope that we’ll ever talk/see each other again. Because I haven’t let go of any of the feelings we once shared for each other, they’re still just as intense as the first time I felt them. They say you never forget your first love, and this one’s totally taunting me. Sometimes ignoring someone you “want to be friends with” and “might have a chance with again sometime in the future” might not produce the result you want, but instead the exact opposite.
Instead of pushing someone out of your life FOR NO APPARENT REASON WITH NO EXPLANATION AT ALL, you’re just making her cling on even harder. And you’re confusing the shit out of her. You’re hurting her. And of course you know it, how could you not?
I know I’m being a psycho and I know I should move on and I know I’m hurting myself over and over again. But it doesn’t matter, because I am not doing anything about it. And I don’t even know how to pry away.
Obviously, writing about it is the only way I can even start to deal with this mess that’s going on. Be glad you’re not me, I guess.
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