Let there be light!

[Preface to this post:] It wasn't until flying on Wednesday night that I realize I feel utterly isolated.

Yes, I have close friends via electronic communication; however, I'm up in the Bay Area alone and I've just gone through a really hard situation also leaving me emotionally abandoned. In times like these during college, I'd go out with friends or have a physical shoulder to cry on, watch a movie with the girls... the list goes on.

And when I thought about all that on the plane, I couldn't keep it in. I've never before acted like this in public and I could not hold back the tears stinging my eyes.

Luckily it was a red eye flight, so it was dark and hardly anyone was awake when I rank back to the lavatory to grab some kleenex.

It all just hit so hard and I've had three days to digest it all. Even though I'm totally overwhelmed, I'm starting to put things into perspective and convince myself of how to think, feel and act.

Working constantly for two weeks is helping take my mind off everything. Especially with a lightning storm here in Boston to break up the monotony of 12 hours of volleyball matches. And since this IS the AVP, it was only fitting that they evacuated us from our metal "cage" to a neighboring bar and dance cabana. Hey, at least they had an overhang!

There really is never a dull moment here on tour. Especially when you mix staff, players and local drunks :)

...But when it all comes to a screeching halt at the end of the season, I'm getting the feeling that I'm going to have a lot more time to think about my present situation some more.